I'm 1 month and 3 days sober I wanted to share a poem with all you beautiful people also I'm inpatient treatment a 90 day program been here 34 days and the longest I ever made it was 12 but here I am loving myself and believing I'm worthy for the first time if I can do it anyone can!!! I woke up in the middle of the night I want to say it was about 2:30 because I go to bed at 8:00 now lol and I wrote a poem I started to when I woke up I thought maybe it was a dream until I looked over and seen that it wasn't until I started to write more until I finished it and I wanted to share it with you guys..... I loved you like no other you would have thought you were my sister or my brother you filled my cup right away or so I thought but you were so thirsty you drank every last drop at first I felt great running around wild and unapologetic sweeping everything under the rug you were my best friend my favorite drug beautiful powerful and unapologetic My crutch in the hard times but also my cry for help The loneliness when I cried out for my mom she couldn't be there they say it numbs you how come I felt? The day I became powerless I walk through these doors broken and afraid knowing I needed more I surrendered and prayed giving it my all realizing you were just a tether and would never be great always a downfall day by day I learned to love myself for the first time I believe I'm worth it and where I'm supposed to be not too late just right on time. The friends I'm making the mother I've started to become means I never needed you at all I just needed to get vulnerable and become strong.. I know it's a process but I'm doing great and with the devil out of my life I think I predict my fate.... God will protect me and keep me safe as long as I stay in his loving grace goodbye old friend thanks for the PTSD at least I know now you can no longer influence me!!!! By Cassie Marie steurer 2/21/2026