I have 1 year 6 months 15 days and I’ve been reflecting on the past a lot. Sometimes the overwhelming sadness hits of the wreckage I caused. Even after doing step work sometimes it’s emotionally draining thinking about how much I missed out on. It’s hitting me a lot lately because my middle child is about to be 13 and I feel like I robbed us of a better relationship don’t my active addiction. Trying to focus on the present and just work on making it better but some days it’s hard.