Hello, not sure if anyone is going to read this so I’m gonna just use it as my personal journal, it’s day 2 of not smoking weed, used to smoke every day, I quit because I was watching the sandman (the Netflix show… it’s a long story) doesn’t matter, but anyway I currently wide awake and it’s 2:19am insomnia is kicking my ass even though I can feel my self physically tired I close my eyes and I can’t keep them shut or it feels like I’m faking it the whole time and it can go for hours it’s also annoying that whenever im actually starting to fall asleep my body jerks me right up for some sick and twisted reason that I do not know, no appetite but that’s okay because I’ve been over eating like crazy due to munchies so at least I’ll loose all the weight I’ve put on (quite literally the only silver lining I see to quitting realistically as a fucked up addict/ generally mentally ill person’s brain) but oh well, last year I did 4 months and relapsed bad so maybe I can do this again but for ever???? Idk sounds too daunting and almost unattainable, and that’s mainly because I don’t trust my self at all, and I’m not drinking either so im quite literally raw dogging life right now which I did do for 18 years of my life to be fair, which mean I should be able to do it for 18 years at least… idk I’m sleep deprived and rambling so who knows