I know I’m not myself when I drink and I morph into a person who is selfish and impulsive, yet my mind still tries to convince me that I can drink and control myself. It tells me that life is extremely boring sometimes or that every holiday, birthday, or celebration must be an occasion to drink. But there’s another voice in me that wants to be better and do well for myself and my family. Who wants to finish school and help others. I’m almost at two months and although I have been in and out of sobriety, I really, really want to stay sober and I am taking it one step at a time.