30 Days today It’s heartwarming to see double digits with three in-front of it. I’m just reaching the sweet spot where my dopamine levels suppose to normalize and the first major hard reward/pleasure/pain system reset should be completed right around here somewhere at a one month point. That’s all theory from addiction research literature. In practice I still suffer from constant binging on food, anxiety, boredom, lack of attention, poor life satisfaction and emotions all over the board. I go to the gym twice more then prior to quitting alcohol, but gained weight. I also find it extremely difficult to stay focused on one task and just feel tired all the freaking time. I also had that massive craving yesterday during work meeting - like, instead of paying attention to updates from a manager, I was thinking about my upcoming BDay and having one drink, then thinking, oh maybe I can go on a trip and drink all weekend without counting drinks? and maybe also Friday as well? I felt the jolt of excitement and anticipation, as I was thinking - it will be over a month, I deserved a freaking drink! But then I just felt so sad, so so soooo sad it’s just soul twisting🥲 How are you all doing?