Today is a new day I hope. I missed turning in an assignment last night because I was too gone out of my mind. My current job right now is underground and encouraging for girls to drink and use other substance to stay awake and work long hours. I feel like I’ve worked there for so long that I don’t know how to get out. And then when I finally do, I fall right back into fast money to keep up with the bills. With my current school schedule, it’s hard to work another job but I know that’s no excuse. So I’m hoping here I can find support. Advice. Other ideas and options. With friends, I can drink normally, but this job feels so degrading that I think I drink to stay completely numb and it feels like one bottle turns into two and before I know it, two days have past and my responsibilities fall through. It’s time for a change.