Whew, y'all. Just needed to get this out. I'm just passed 100 days and you'd think things would feel a little more... settled. But today's been a real struggle. My brain feels like it's in a blender, just whirring with all the old thoughts and urges. It's not even a craving for a drink, really, more like a craving for the escape a drink used to offer. The mental gymnastics are EXHAUSTING. It's so frustrating to feel like I'm doing all the "right" things – meetings, therapy, connecting with my sponsor – and still have these days where it feels like I'm back at square one. Like, come on, brain! We've been over this!! Just needed to vent a bit and know I'm not the only one who still has these kinda days even after some time. 💪 Hang in there everyone.