I decided to ease down on weed after buying a vape cart with my last money while telling myself this would be the last time even though i've been telling myself the same thing for many times. After buying a cart and smoking it was burnt and it didn't taste good but despite that i kept going to the point the i broke my cart. I've been trying to control myself but I just keep on trying to find the "perfect timing" to stop it that eventually i found my self smoking it daily. Breaking my barely used cart was the last straw. I was suppose buy a new phone by saving my money but i used all of my money to smoke. Eventually even lying to my girlfriend. Even though i try to stop my self i keep on asking myself does it get better? When i don't smoke i become a very angry person and i become unfocused on my job and become more lazy. I sometimes think i have more ideas and more productive when i smoke. I hope that this time i could actually find hope to live with cannabis on a balanced way and not totally depend on it.