Hi I’m Jono 24yo, been drinking pretty heavy for about 3 years, sometimes way more sometimes way less, tried to quit what feels like hundreds of times, longest I’ve been is 12 days, 7 days quite a few times and so on. Recently I’ve only been drinking twice a week roughly. I only ever will drink at night. What really gets me is the 4th or 5th day and my brain is just like screw it go on, it feels like there’s always an excuse to drink, that really gets me hard. I’ve made a lot of mistakes when drinking, a lot I’m really not proud of. I also get very bad health anxiety from it. I want to stop drinking because I know it’s really really bad for my health, and I don’t like who I am or what I do when I’m way drunk, I feel like a lot in my life the last few weeks have been going on the upside for me finally and things are finally working out, new job, going well with my partner, getting along well with my parents, a lot of things that weren’t working out for so long are finally working out, and I know if I keep drinking I’ll loose all of that very soon, and for good. My mind runs 247, especially after alcohol. I hate it. I really hope I can change for good, it’s really really hard. I really want to do it for my family and my future, I know I can do so well, and everything is finally working out, I just need to kick this one thing, for everything, not kick everything, for one thing. That’s a bit of my story, hopefully I’ll keep posting here as I go along each day and explain how I’m feeling. Maybe so I can look back after a few weeks of beating alcohol and say see you can do it, or something. Anyway, if you’ve read this far, I appreciate you taking the time, hopefully I’ll talk to you again soon. Currently 12hrs sober.