Hello! 1st day here, 6 days clean with help of MAT, unfortunately:(. Today I confessed to my partner that I had borrowed 600$ from an envelope with 6k in it her son had saved up for a car, to pay a bill because I had overspend on 7oh. I have been holding the cash for a week, I told her 10 days ago that I had been using opiates and kratom. But I was so ashamed to tell her. I feel such a weight lifted and proud of myself for being honest( because I could've just put it back, but I felt it was important to admit to the choice I had made) and she was so kind and loving. I feel like an awful piece of crap and like I don't deserve her. I am definitely not feelimg worthy of her forgiveness or love right now.