i'm just so tired of feeling like I have to prove myself everyday. like just because I'm on this path, people expect me to be some zen master all the time. newsflash, I'm not! just passed 3 weeks and yeah, it's a win, but it's also EXHAUSTING. my mind is still doing backflips sometimes, trying to trick me into thinking 'just one hit' wouldn't hurt. it’s a constant battle, and it's frustrating. 🔥 it's not always sunshine and rainbows over here. some days it's just pure grit and reminding myself WHY I started. I guess I just needed to say that out loud. It's tough, and that's okay to admit.