I was 4 months sober and strong in recovery when my 2 years old brother passed away, it wasn't that hard because i had my fellow brothers and sisters in recovery at any given time and i was able to take 1 day at a time . A month later my father passed away , i couldn't handle it and that led to my relapse . Addiction is painful because it brings nothing but the worst out of someone . I took a decision alone this time to stop drinking alcohol and work on my reservations and im proud to say im 4 days sober