today something happened that gave me even more of an incentive to get sober. when you smoke all the time, reality starts to feel distorted and it’s hard to remember things. i have at class every day at 10:30am, and ive had this class for the last 3 months. today i was throughly convinced it was at 11am, and missed it completely. i stood there for a moment as everyone filed out of the classroom. i tried to remember what time the class was supposed to be at and it hurt my brain to think. i don’t want to feel like an idiot anymore who has no control of their life. this shit ends now