does anyone else sometimes just feel so... tired? not just physically, but like, emotionally exhausted from being in recovery. like, it's amazing and I wouldn't trade it for anything, but sometimes it feels like I'm constantly "on", constantly fighting something even when there's nothing specific to fight. I woke up today and just felt this heaviness, like the weight of all the past stuff and the effort of staying present just kinda crashed down. it's not a craving, thank GOD, just this deep weariness. Like, will it ever get easier to just... exist without feeling like I'm constantly working at it? does that make sense?