So I've conquered 3 days clean from meth with my partner who's not willing to let go . It was the hardest challenge yet fighting the urge to give in and I'm proud of myself but my finale episode was completely breaking away from him. His not planning to change and his always been my trigger so I had to accept the things I can not change, courage to change the things I can, and I chose my boys who are 4 and 2 years old and leave as his house was filled with enablers and betrayers. Being back home no urges although I have memories of the feeling that I hated. I'm glad to be free after 6 years of lies and deception. I'm glad I finally broke free although it's a journey that's only the beginning. I don't plan to stop my journey so as long as I can, I'll keep checking in and need the motivation because honestly sobriety is a life long decision.