Going on almost two months of being sober. Suffering consequences of First DUI suck. Did not realize the weight of a refusal would carry into my work career. Struggling to find a positive in it. Definitely was complacent though, have always had a few and drove home not thinking of repercussion and of course the one time I didn’t think it got me. I made the poor decision and own it and I deserve all that comes with it. Very heavy to carry unfortunately I never thought about being in this position. Currently trying to find some source of income and side work but I placed all my eggs in one basket with my career choice and unfortunately most places don’t want to take a chance on that. Or so it feels. Just venting