I just saw an old picture of me and my best friend from high school. Before everything. And it just HIT me. Like a truck!! All the grief for that time, for that person I used to be, for how much I messed things up with her… it’s just SO overwhelming right now. For so long, I just numbed all of that out, and now it’s like it’s all rushing back at once. It’s PAINFUL!! And I know feeling is good, I KNOW it’s part of healing, but right now it just feels like too much. I'm only 2 weeks in and it feels like there's so much pain to process. Just needed to share this with people who get it. It’s just so hard to sit with sometimes.