Was talking to a buddy today about some old times and it hit me how much of my life was just… waiting. Like, waiting for the next time I could get high, waiting for the day to be over so I could escape. It was always about the next thing, never really being present in the moment. And today, I just felt it, really felt it. This feeling of being here, now, truly present in my own life. That's a BIG deal. It's a quiet victory but man, it feels good. Feels like I'm finally living.