this whole idea of "just one more time" or "it won't hurt just this once" is such BULLSHIT. My brain tried to pull that crap on me today and for a minute I almost fell for it, like my mind completely forgot how much of a MESS it made of everything before. It's so frustrating that those thoughts even pop up anymore. I'm doing so well and then BAM, out of nowhere, it's like my addict brain tries to sneak in a little "what if." It's infuriating! Anyone else get those sneaky, irritating thoughts after feeling super solid for a while?