man, sometimes I just wanna yell. like, the whole "recovery is linear" thing? total BS. I'm over here trying to stay grounded and some days it feels like a fight just to get out of bed without that old craving whispering in my ear. it's not like I'm gonna act on it, but the MENTAL ENERGY it takes to push past those old grooves is EXHAUSTING. I thought I was past this stuff, you know. guess it's a lifelong gig, this recovery thing. just needed to get that off my chest, feels a bit better now. ❤️‍🩹