I just started my sobriety journey. I hit rock bottom over the weekend. I drank too much. It was different than the other times that I’ve overdrank. I can deal with vomiting, headaches, hangovers, not being able to walk, or acting extroverted due to the alcohol. But this was the first and only time that I have ever blacked out and been mean. The one thing that I never wanted to be was a mean drunk but I was nasty. It was an immense wake up call and it’s the buggest reason that I need to be sober. If anyone else has been this way before, were you ever able to forgive yourself? And what did you do to work through the shame and depression about how mean you were? I keep thinking about the parts of that night that I remember (sort of) and I can’t stop regretting it and being beyond disgusted with myself. Any tips or comments on this?