I'm almost 60 days in this time and it's not my first, second or third time in rehab try like 7th but this time it's different for me I made the choice myself this time to come and I make the choice everyday to stay and keep going I'm really actually trying this time and it's so different from all the other times. I really just wanna get it this time I want this to be my last time! I'm so tired of repeating the same cycle and living that life style, I'm tired of it I want a better life and I'm working so hard for it this time. I just want it to stick..my cravings have been crazy the last few days though like I smell it taste it all I can think about is getting high and I'm trying to use my coping skills and reminding myself why I'm here but fuck man.. this shit so fucking hard!