this is a hard one to write today. i'm really struggling with feeling like i'm not getting anywhere. i'm doing the meditations, hitting my meetings, drinking all the water... and yet i still feel this heavy cloud hanging over me. it's just so disheartening sometimes, you know. i keep telling myself it's part of the process, that recovery isn't linear but ugh, it's tough to believe it when you're in the thick of it. i just want to feel like i'm making progress, even a little bit. this no-progress feeling is draining me. ❤️‍🩹