feeling the urges more and more, my inner voice keeps telling me sobriety doesn’t matter, im not even addicted, that its not that bad, i just need to moderate, this time will be different for sure. i crave that anxiety-free social interactions while being intoxicated, but the shame that follows after keeps me away for now. im losing motivation, to be quite honest. i dont remember why i started, but i know its my addiction playing tricks on me