I feel like everyday this week I’ve been resetting my tracker. I am sneaking and drinking liquor right in front of my BF. I love him so much I wish I would stop drinking as a whole. I’m 22 and I drink straight tequila and vodka since I was 19. It’s been 3 years of drinking. I just feel like my liver and my stomach, my kidneys and everything is completely done. I haven’t went a full 10 days of being sober in nearly 2 years. I want to stop. I don’t drink everyday but I wish I can keep my sobriety longer than 3 months. I need help and prayers. I feel like an awful person. I say and do stupid stuff. I send prayers for everyone on here and to keep your head high. WE GOT THIS!! God is with us, been 7 hours since my last drink. Excited to start over for good this time.