Hi, I was sober for a stretch but fell into old habits. I know I'm a better and happier person when I am alcohol free. I find it so irrational that I returned to the occasional drinking despite knowing that. I'm feeling very insecure, like I'm the friend who let myself down. I don't trust myself, and that's such a helpless feeling when you feel like you yourself are not a reliable caretaker of your wellbeing