I am learning sobriety is linked to identity. One trigger for me with substance is that it helps me become a version of myself that I enjoy more bc my thoughts are slower and I feel free-er. Unfortunately it is manufactured freedom with a cost. Thus, I am having to develop identity as I am and with that comes grief and joy all in the same moment. To fully be self as is and trust this path. No substance escape is challenging at times. But to lean on substance and taste a manufactured version eventually leads to a cost that takes more than it gives. Doing a side quest helps. If I want a substance...I just do a side quest like sit in the sun, take a shower, turn on music, sit on patio, declutter an area, eat something healthy, make a fun non alcoholic drink like ice coffee, tea, etc...Do a side quest today as the true version of yourself. It can be hard but it's a necessary step. To sit with self. Self-acceptance. Self-love ❤️